with this little wide-eyed dreamer craning her neck too stare at the trees...walks will never be the same.
with these two snoring beside me...sunday afternoon naps will never be the same.
with this little beautiful warm body snuggled against me...i'm happy that things will never be the same as they once were.3
june 9th - that was the day my mom sent a message that my grandpa wayne had passed away. i've had almost 31 years of being able to closely know and be loved by all 4 of my grandparents...and that day it changed. we packed our bags and made the 16 hour drive there to join grandma, family and friends. it didn't really hit me until i was sitting at the funeral, looking at his picture on the funeral card and singing 'precious thought'. i wouldn't wish him back because i know he lived for that day, but i will miss everything about him. his quietness. the way he chuckled when something struck him funny. hearing him begin a prayer for the meal. seeing him in his garden. watching him read in his big chair and then drift to sleep. getting an email from him. seeing him still hold hands with my grandma after 70 years of marriage. in the middle of our drive back home - i was sitting in the back seat beside vesper and looking at my love in the rear view mirror and all of a sudden i had tears overflowing. i got caught up with a feeling of wondering how i'd gotten so lucky. to be loved. to know love. to have so many to love.
...and this was our pit-stop on the drive back...not bad...not bad at all. a perfect place to sit and feel thankful with my 2 greatest loves.4
almost three months have gone by. crazy. blog posts now revolve around little v and i can't think of anything more worhy these days. meal time seems it will never quite be the same, except when we eat out...most of the time that goes extremely well for some reason. we still always playfully fight over who gets to carry her when we go on our daily walks or hold her after she's fallen asleep for the evening. now mornings start no later than 6:30 most days...vesper is at her best so we gladly wipe the sleepiness from our eyes and cheer her on. our "go to" calmer for fussiness is walking out the door...99.5% of the time the great outdoors does the trick instantly - without any doubt she love love loves it. she definetly knows her room...and likes it best out of the whole house. she can play a mean game of fighting sleep. she's letting us see a lot more of her awesome smiles and a little personality seems to be showing up more and more. we are definetly a family of three...and i'm quite happy it's getting harder and harder to fathome life without this little pumpkin.4